24 Februari 2017

resolution, resolution!


i have actually made a new year's resolution.... which is quite crappy lol so i did not post it here. as i have already HAD to make a modification, here goes the updated-yet-more-powerful 2017 resolutions:

1. academic: pass transfer with only few revision by end of july/early august (right before/after PPI UK's ISIC-SI)
2. organisation: push ISF sub-cluster and research goals towards ISIC 2017
3. family: save money for me-time and family-time end of june to july (before transfer!! rrawrr!)
4. health: develop overall body strength and gauge stable body weight
5. social: see more people, academic- and/or career-wise if possible

phew.. the 5th one is.. idk, kind of the 'easier' version of submitting a paper to a conference or participating in talks lol. i submitted something to a small ted-like talk by PPI Oxford for this may, idk if it'll pass. indonesian students here are more... hmm.. ambitious, i guess? lol. but it's good! you're always challenged to become better and better!

but yea, if i managed to submit one paper this year, that'd be cool. lol.

1-2-3 are related to each other, so june and and july would be my KEY months, and august would be my sleeping month hopefully :''')


monthly cycle

1st week: meh
2nd week: meh
3rd week: 3rd week already?!
4th-5th week (if any): supervision meeting, no sleep!!!

- meeting happens -

1st week: meh

19 Februari 2017

sincere game for sincere friends, yaay!

so lately i've been, well broken. lol. as cheesy as it sounds i was completely devastated. and what did i do about it? well i did what i always do best: i bother people!

well let's see, starting from my mom, one person who i don't really know that deep but situations just made us kinda know each other, three of my friends who are literally wayyyy over the "close friends" yes they are ultimately close sometimes i don't even bother to filter my words when i am with them, another person whom i don't really know that deep and blah blah blah continued from the one you've read already, oh another friend from college who accidentally involved blah blah blah, and old friend of mine who i believe have wisdom waayyyyy over mine, hmm two of my randomly grouped friends, and oh! two people to whom i started to be opened up to. quite a lot, eh?!

so, in honour of my true true friends and family, i would give some of them a little surprise. not that 'surprisy' though, just a token of appreciation as i do not do this too often, except for my mom, whom i tooootally totally talk about A LOT. so i'll just choose five of them andddd........ welcome to the compliment quickfire!!!


ok what is this game. shortly, i would have 1 minute NOT LESS, NOT MORE, to give quick compliment about each of the people i will be introducing you to. i will start with a photo (from facebook, obviously), a nickname (not full name, no), a little background of who the person is/how we knew each other (not timed) anddddd start complimenting (timed)! i can write as long as i'd like but it should be under one minute of writing. ok? ok. leet's go!

DIAZ. we became friends because we thought we were the closest description of "hipster" starting from 2009, 2nd year of college. COMPLIMENT! he's super open minded but firm in the place(s) where he needs to. adventuruous, kind, but it does not mean he could get REALLY mad, lol. he's loyal, would do anything for love (and for the one he loves).


ALBERT. background quite similar with diaz, except he ain't no hipster. not even close. COMPLIMENT! this man sucks, lol. man it's soooo hard to compliment this guy i always want to punch him in the face! but he's super kind and would do anything for his family. strong, yet gentle. wtf is that lol. he's ok.

BAHAHAHA don't you see how hard i did that?! well honestly he's quite awesome, it's just that we're overtly close and he's so fun to be picked on (he did the same thing to me, meh) so fair enuff!

DIAN. background a bit similar with those two except we've known each other since a year earlier. we wanted geology but got dumped to geodesy, LOL. COMPLIMENT! she. is. strong. like seriously, you would never EVER find someone as strong as her. she's crazy strong i don't even know how lol. big dreams, but yea sometimes i just want to shout in her face GO! GET! THOSE!

ahaw! i'd have to admit, i cheated. i knew how to cheat, and i did that. i thought about what i wanted to write while i was searching her photo on facebook lol but that does not mean it is not sincere! and voila, i might cheat again for the next two ;p

RAISA. just because me and her went to the same highschool with 'that' raisa, she's not 'her.' no. they are two. different. people. COMPLIMENT! man, why is 'strong' the first word that cross my mind like, again? but seriously, behind those eyes she is! she's hard working, a good partner, and even have more HARSH words than mine during some times!

man she's really great. i don't know how i'd be if i didn't remember to contact her during this period of time. yea of course i cheated, i already knew what i wanted to write about her here lol.

MOM. this. is. my. twin. my everything. i didn't want to write about her at first but seriously, can't i?! COMPLIMENT! i cried to her since i was a baby and she still listens. even though she got uneasy and super impatient if i cried too hard (which is EXACTLY what i'd do lol) superwoman. inspiration. crazy. everything.

and IT'S A WRAP!! wooff was harder than i thought, man. i literally do not know, how to get through this week, if it weren't for these guys.... and the others i have described earlier. hopefully these sincere compliments would make their days a bit better lol. and sorry for anything that is inappropriate coz it's me after all MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

ps: you know what, i am always surrounded by women who by definition are STRONG. i mean, i have lots of guy friends too, but 'strong' is never the word i'd describe them first :''') omg wtf is wrong with the world lol

pps: yes, albert's strong, but still not the first word came to mind when i thought about him ;p

ppps: TYME to go back to THE GYM!

17 Februari 2017

the answer is clear, yet You kept asking
i know You died for my sin, so this is the cross i'm bearing
it's not my own happiness, what i long is to comfort
time heals they say, but space conceives hurt

11 Februari 2017

short Q & A

i'm bored. and i found one interesting video in which 70 people ages 5-75 are asked simple questions and we can see how the trend changes (or not) from a young mind to the older ones. here is the video.

so i guess i'll answer those questions, lol. i am now 25 and here are my answers.

what's your goal in life?
finish my PhD, join a scientific cruise 1-2x beforehand, go home, get married, find a place to live and have family, have a steady job and just enough time to do my hobbies.

what do you regret most?
hmm.... leaving home (again) too quickly to pursue my education, i guess.

what was your favourite song growing up?
hmm..... que sera sera :)

what woman do you most admire?
mainstream, but my mom.

what's the most romantic thing that's happened to you?
i guess when my ex picked me up at our 8th month anniversary, circa 2011. when i went out of my place he put out a white rose from inside of his jacket, lol. we didn't really do a lot of romantic stuff back then so it was special.

then i found another channel. the questions are also quite cool.

so let's get started.

the most important lesson you've learned
don't blame people for disappointing you, blame yourself for expecting too much from them

what have you sacrificed?
my quality time with the loved ones

how do you mend a broken heart?
you can't

what is one thing everyone should try?

what is love?

quite nice, eh? let's see how it'll change the following years.


i tried to be nice to day, and it felt great.
i tried to do at least 1-2 hours of exercise/sports every day, with 1 rest day every week, and it felt great.

trying to be happy with simple things isn't as easy as it sounds these days. a lot of pressure coming not from the society, but from myself. i met bang hadi (malaysian) and pawan (thai) earlier this day, we chatted about our projects and it turns out that i am not as far behind as i thought i was. too bad we're not in the same room, not even the same building. having a peer group is really important for me right now, especially the ones with similar struggle, lol.

i gotta say, it has been a nice week. i tried to wake up at 6 am every single day but the success rate these 5 days is still 3:5, not exactly every single day. as i have been trying to work with data instead of reading numerous papers, i have been dragging myself back to spotify and found quite variety of music. you'll find me head banging while playing with GMT or ArcGIS quite often, lol.

this is a nice one! a bit queen-wanna-be but i gotta say it's quite neat!

i've got two gym classes tomorrow, i'll play around with some data as i did not quite manage to carry out 8 hours/day of work every single day. there were days i woke up late and i faced some troubleshooting with one of my software and well, it pissed me off. i might need to go to the student's cluster to do that. and i've got an appointment with a friend in the evening. i'm not really sure what we're gonna do but let's just see.

hopefully i would be able to wake up in the morning on sunday as i will be having a walk! yaay! so in the mean time i'll try to pick up where i left off, days are getting shorter these days. have a nice and blessed day, everyone :)

04 Februari 2017

gym and stuff

yes yes right, i've just joined the gym!

after all the hesitation, all the activities, and all the emptiness beside work-work-and-sleep-and-eat post panto and bhangra performances. there you have it, gab. a gym membership.

surprised? well, honey, you should not.

to be completely honest i have allllwayys wanted to join a gym since i was as little as 12. back then, gym was such a privilege. only upper-class people could afford it and i was not one, lol. i first tried a 'free day' with a friend and a mom's friend in celebrity fitness pondok indah mall when i was, hmm.. in junior high i guess? so yeah, i was still very little, around 12-14 years old i suppose.

CELFIT! still the up-most gym in indonesia, i guess?

it was like this huuuuuge timezone! yes, i always consider gyms as a place to 'play' because, look at all those machines! i only tried the treadmill and cycle yet i felt really cool. one thing that amazed me more is that they have classes! i joined the hip hop class as this type of class was reaaally in in late 90s, before zumba came. it was awesome. it was great.... but not affordable.

high school there was this 'obligatory' gym class in a cheap gym....... which i hate. it was disgusting. literally sweat everywhere, and you know what i'm talking about. then in university, still, gym's not an option. no money honey. no money. even until i worked, still my earning could only meet my basic needs.

master's degree? well, there was a little gym at campus, but again, it's tiny and all sweaty.... and all boys -___- thank God a friend invited me to a zumba class and also thank God for fitness blender! with a pair of adjustable dumbbells (for like, 20 euros or something?) i did like 2-4 exercises a week. my house was quite spacious, me and my roommates even had dancing days with a youtube channel called fitness marshall!


from october till mid-december i was really busy. panto practices took about 8 hours/week and bhangra took about 3 hours/week, sometimes more. so if i joined the gym since then, it would not be worth it. even though i really wanted to join from day one as the membership is super cheap! it's like 15.25 pounds/month (so about 250.000ish rupiahs - even cheaper than celfit's membership!) and i've got 8 hours/day access to the fitness suite and 25m long swimming pool in weekdays, free exercise classes (zumba, bodypump, spin class, you name it) every single day (with reservations and stuff), climbing wall, and squash court! the only down side is that, well, i only bought the cheapest membership so i would not have access to both fitness suite and swimming pool in peak hours (example, after 15:30) and on weekends. but it's alright. the access is open from 06:30 everyday and it's a lot emptier in the morning. i did my induction at 17:00 and it was crowded. not worth the extra money, man.

most important thing in my membership: ACCESS. TO. SWIMMING. FVCKIN. POOL.

oh, and they've got these tailored swimming exercises, laminated! so i could just pick something up depending on the distance i would like to 'conquer' and believe me. it was hard. but more effective than only swimming without any goals. almost wanted to give up in the near end, got trouble breathing, slowed down, but thank God the pool was almost empty so i would not need to speed up or stuff before finally.... cool down!

i've only joined like two days ago so of course i am still motivated! let's see what i would become...... next month ;p
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